R@J aur Sweety ka Scribble Pad

As an introvert, I'm not used to being the center of attention and tend to shy away from the spotlight. Public displays of affection make me feel especially uncomfortable, and even receiving affection in private can sometimes feel awkward. I often find myself unsure of how to respond in those moments, feeling a bit out of my element. However, over the past four months, things have started to change. Talking to Sweety every day for hours at a time, I’ve found myself gradually enjoying affection in ways I hadn’t expected. The conversations, the small gestures, and the emotional connection have made me realize that affection doesn’t always have to be overwhelming or public. It can be something quiet and intimate, a shared moment between just the two of us. I’m learning to embrace these moments more comfortably, finding joy in the genuine connection.  It’s still a bit of a journey for me, but I can see how affection, when given in the right way, can be something I not only accept but a...

Came across this on youtube. I don't know if this can be applied universally. My experience has been that the second time we fall in love, there is a host of emotion. It is more layered and more complex.  I never experienced betrayal, however, I just never could get out the second love. Thereafter the Mind works overtime, and never lets you put your guard down The heart might want to love with abandon, but the mind holds back, constantly cautioning and second-guessing every emotion. In my case, my second love blossomed again as the third love, the feeling was amazing. but mind always played overtime, constantly cautioning.  I wonder what other experience.

The only thing I have in my control and can give is love and the only thing I want is love. I want to continue to love you and think of you every minute of my life until my last breath. You have become an integral part of me and will stay in my heart and mind forever.  I don't want to make any attempt to restrict my thoughts or divert my mind. I feel at peace loving you and giving myself to you. I am very thankful and grateful for your presence in my life wherever you are.  I also know you can never find anyone else who loves you like I do. Whether you choose to be at the receiving end or not is your choice. Too bad if you choose not to for whatever reason, you are definitely going to be missing out on this once in a lifetime opportunity for this life! I hope whatever you choose is worth the sacrifice of my love. Songs on the playlist and the blog will speak to me in your absence.  My hope to be with you will never die! Remember that however long it may take ...

Jab jaan ko dil se nikal kar, kisi kone mein basna pad jaye, Tab samajh aata hai, ki zakhmon ka apna ek rang hota hai. Dard ka kya, woh toh har pal saath tha, Dard se ishq usse jaayda kar baithe,  hum ishq mein aise kya dooba gaye, Ki bin dard ke, zindagi be-rang ho jaye. Usne kaha, “Jab yaad aaye, toh chand ko dekh lena," Chand ko dekh kar, akhon mein aansoo bhar aaye. Us dard ki talash mein, dilkash raaton ko bhi andhera kar dala, Dil ka bhikarna toh bas purnima ki raat mein likha tha. Har yaad se, aankhon mein nami bhar jaaye, Ab toh yahi umeed hai, ki kam se kam amavasya ki raat mein, Thoda sa sukoon mil jaye. Aur phir kabhi, chand ko dekhne ki himmat na ho. Jab jaan ko dil se nikal kar, kisi kone mein basna pad jaye.

When we go through the worst times alone We don't really care about who stays or who wants to stay in our lives anymore The struggle becomes so consuming that the need for validation or reassurance fades away In those moments, we realize that the only person we truly need to rely on is ourselves. People sticking around is a distraction, while the mind searches for the quite secluded space Lying can be incredibly tough, maintaining a false version of reality is emotionally draining Guilt, anxiety, and a sense of disconnection are not worth the silly pleasure

Mein ek baar phir tere khayalo mein khoya rahata hoon vo wakt tha jab har lamha tera intezar karta tha Din ho ya raat bas tujeh hi yaad karta rahata tha Khud ke khushi se jaayda teri khusi ki dua ki Na mulakat karne ki himmat thi na hi baat karne ki   Dil ke kone mein bas tujhe basa rakha tha samay bitha raha, par kona vohi raha Dihre dihre duniya ko dekhne ka nazarya badal gaya, par kona vohi raha Bhagya ne phri pata nahi kya katha likhi Ki hume phir amne samne khada kar dala Iss baar kona nahi, pura dil hi kabza kar dala Mein ek baar phir tere khayalo mein khoya rahata hoon

Sometimes, the person who loves you most is also the one who struggles the most to show it. Love can often be hidden behind walls of silence. It’s easier to avoid vulnerability than to admit just how much someone means to you. Loving deeply comes with the risk of pain, and silence can feel like the safer option—protecting oneself from the fear of hurt. At times, choosing to ignore rather than confront their emotions is easier, because of the fear of being overwhelmed by need, or that it may leave them too exposed

Ah, a Saturday evening with alu pakodi—crispy and warm! It sounds like the perfect time to unwind and let your thoughts flow. There’s something special about enjoying a snack like that, especially when it’s paired with a moment of reflection on the week that went by... So here is whats on my mind  - A private life always helps.. you can keep it a secret until you win - Theoretically starting over is easy, and can be done at any time. Overcoming the inertia and thinking      about what others will say is the hard part - People will disappoint us, so never trust anyone, draw the boundary, and ensure it is respected - When we love someone we overlook their flaws and weakness - Sometimes these flaws and weaknesses will bring you anguish.. live with it - Building a relationship to fill a void in our life is the biggest mistake we make - When a promise turns into a sorry ... probably it is time to leave - Silence speaks louder than words, walking away from an argument is ...

Trust is delicate; once it's shaken, it can feel incredibly difficult to rebuild or offer again. When we’ve been let down, our natural instinct is to pull back, protect ourselves, and set up emotional barriers. It’s a way of shielding ourselves from further pain. Boundaries are important for our time, energy, and mental well-being. Boundary gives us space to heal, reflect, and rebuild. " Trust no one except your own self " is a powerful sentiment. It’s a form of self-preservation. When trust in others has been shaken, the safest thing may be to rely on your own judgment and instincts, rather than depending on others for validation or emotional support. By doing this, we focus on nurturing our own strength and resilience . Trusting ourselves can help us regain control, rebuild confidence, and navigate life’s challenges with more self-assurance.

Finally, the U.S. has voted, and the results are rolling in. Personally, I feel that the U.S. electoral system has significant flaws, especially compared to other countries. The rules vary widely between states, and counties decide how they will count votes, which can create inconsistencies. Additionally, concerns over mail-in ballot integrity are not easily dismissed. In fact, it might be beneficial for international observers to ensure transparency and fairness, given the challenges surrounding the process. Early returns suggest a notable shift in the political landscape. It appears to be a "red wave." Historically, Democrats were supposed to be a party that supported workers and the republicans a party that represented the rich. Last couple of elections Democrats have dominated urban areas, cities, and university towns, while rural America has been a stronghold for Republicans. However, this time, the Democrats are losing support even in the urban areas. After they mismana...

We only have so much within our realm of control. We cannot change others. We can only influence to an extent but the change comes only when the person wants to change and makes an effort to change. We can only change ourselves- our thinking, our actions, our perception, our behavior.   Sometimes things happen as per our wants and sometimes they don’t but life must go on… We have to find strength to accept everything that comes our way, adjust and move on… You own your journey of life. People and things come and go in phases. With or without them life must go on… We have to find comfort in solitude, pick ourself up and move on…

  You and I are similar in some ways -   - Choose the path however difficult it is to find peace, even at the cost of distancing ourselves from the ones that love us the most. - Letting go the one you love the most to support    their choices even though it is heart breaking and painful. - Have self control and restraint on anything if we choose to  - Love for each other is limitless and unexplainable. - Always wish for the best for each other however near or far we are. You and I are different in some ways-  - I find my peace and tranquility being with you and thinking about you and You find your peace and tranquility keeping your mind free of my thoughts! - I consider you my strength and you consider me a distraction. - I like to express my love and say it aloud and you like to keep it quiet and love in silence - I want to stay and grow old with you and you want to give up and renunciate. - I keep looking back at things that bring back memories as I deal ...